Happy New Year!

Alyyphantee wishes all a HAPPY NEW YEAR, 2018!

Hope to all that 2017 has treated you well and wish for the best for 2018!

Honestly it has been the most challenging year for me and I’m very open to admit it. But I am determined to put the past behind me and steer forward. I can’t wait to look back and say, 2017 was really just a phase, what was I thinking?! 

2018 will be a year of pure me. It will be the year that I will be truly myself. No one will or can or should govern any of my decisions. So watch out world. The real Alyssa Maiyor is coming out to play. 

Once again, Happy New Year all 🙂 


Starting Over.

It’s almost the end of a tough year, 2017.

I feel like I’ve been through it all, Heartbreaks, New love, Breaking of Hearts, Being broken.

I’m way too good at Goodbyes.

Yes. It seems so narrow minded of me that I revolve my life with how I feel. But different people have different trigger points. Some get triggered by injustice in the world, and put their efforts around doing something about it. Some wants to find purpose in life, in their career and then doing something about it. Well, for me. When I’m in love, I do something about it. And it has been killing me since day 1 about it. 

But today, 27th Dec 2017. 4 days before 2018. I’ve decided to love no more. To let go. I’m not looking back, anymore. I have to promise myself that this is the end of the road for this feeling and this self pity. I have to be stronger and be my own person. Never again should I be doing things for that person and thinking that I’m totally okay as long as the person is happy. I am not happy. But I aspire to be truly happy. 

Readers must be thinking like, can you take this offline and write this in your own personal diary? Why do I have to pen this down for the world to see? Well because I want the world to be my witness and my strength to get over this. I don’t do well suffering alone. I render strength from loved ones, my friends. And all who loves me no matter what. I apologize to all who shows care and want me to rant to them about my problems. And be my personal cheerleader and throw hate crimes at the problem. I apologize because I don’t seem to show that I appreciate you guys enough. And would like to tell you that. You guys are my guardian angel. And I will do anything for you. 

Anyway, just to end today’s blog. I’d like to say a formal goodbye, to a past. And let it be a buried past. Goodluck with everything in life. 

And cheers to me starting over! 🥂🍻


Bug. Off. 

Hi little miss reader,

Please let me clarify that this is not about HIM. I’m happy enough to let you have a good life and wish him all the best too. Watching me shows how insecure you are. So bug off. And don’t be proud. It irritates me to think someone insignificant can bug me like this. 

So. Bug. Off.


Shadow – Whee In (Mamamoo)

This song is about how it feels like to be a shadow, always watching his back. The song is filled with the feeling of a one sided love and the yearning of the other person response to your feelings. That even a small act may fill her heart with so much happiness. Just being around him is sufficient and won’t ask for more to jeopardize the closeness. His happiness is her happines. He doesn’t have to give her more for her to be blissfully happy 🙂 but of course, there is a sense of sadness that things just doesn’t work out as how she would like it to.



This week, my post will be dedicated to purely ranting.

I’ve been in a better place recently, reconnecting with my inner self and focusing on other things  that would not make me upset. I guess the best way for me to move on is really to get distracted. Distracted with things I can do with my life without just wallowing in bed thinking of what could have been. I know readers may feel really petty that after so long, I am still sore and I’m still upset. Heck, of course I am. The guy is moving on, and so am I! Just not social media about it, that’s all. So maybe life is just playing a cruel trick on me. I hate social media now. Dislike how addicted I am to being able to know where everyone is and what they are doing, at what time. Able to be in their shoes and assuming what they are feeling and being affected by my own imagination of how they’re feeling. It’s intoxicating and tiring. I have a knack of being OBSESSED at what everyone is doing. And it in turn hurts me when I find out things I don’t want to. 

Going to quote a good friend of mine:

Alyssa, you’ve got to embrace the Feeling of NOT feeling FOMO, give some time to yourself and live YOUR life.

So yeah, I will try my best. And REALLY get OFF social media to people watch, I DO NOT need that knowledge in my life. Breathe. 

Peace out. 🙆🏻

Ps. I’m absolutely fine guys! 😘 Ping me for proof! 🙆🏻


Travel to Gua Niah!

So the story of the week will be about my trip to Niah! Just gonna give a heads up that the pictures taken weren’t of the besssst quality, just want to give my readers a sense of the highlight of my week.

So the reason behind going to Niah was because… my friends from KL and Brunei came to visit! 🙆🏻 They are my crazy board game freak gang, and they are the most entertaining group of friends I have (sorry everyone else, hehe). But basically had to bring them to Miri’s iconic cave: Gua Niah. 

Travel details:

  • By car from Miri city center; around 1.5 to 2 hours. Depending on the traffic (big lorries on a one lane roads, which is most of the time)
  • Entrance fee: RM10 for locals (if locals bringing foreigners, it is also RM10 each). RM20 for foreigners.
  • RM 1 for a boat ride across a small river to the other side. Not forgetting another RM1 to cross back as well at the end!
  • Drinks and souvenirs are sold mid trail. (Quite pricey, RM3 per can drink)
  • Some areas require torches (Phone flash would be sufficient, if you’re just into casual caving).

Hmm, those are really the only 5 points about what to look out for prior to going. But other than that, I shall story tell my experience. So basically, the road to Niah, was a very easy one. Just one STRAIGHT road all the way to the Niah area, then there will be signs to Niah National Park on the way. May be hard to see, so trust google maps! Just in case you miss any roads. The road itself is slightly bumpy, so brace your car. And you will be so annoyed with the lorries slowly driving on these roads, and needing to cut them. So PLEASE BE CAREFUL WHEN CUTTING! 

Niah’s cave trail is very VERY easy for all ages. We arrived at 10.15am and left Niah at about 1.30pm. But this is just exploring only Traders Cave. If you were to go further into Painting Caves, then you can add another 1 hour to the timing. If you’ve never been to a cave before, Niah would be a good start to get a small feel at how a cave is like 🙂 but overall it was a chilled walk in a cave. 


Before the walk photo!










After the Walk Photo!

It was an overall fun experience! Hope these boys enjoyed themselves! Because I did! The nature and the conversations we had during the walk (not to mention exercised too!) was a fun activity to do in boring little Miri. Be one with nature.

After the walk, we went to eat my favourite dish after Niah-ing. TUTU FISH or IKAN BERTUTU! Bekenu town has a restaurant called “Sing Chiong Restaurant” that rares tutu fishes. Basically they are freshwater fish that has meat that is soft like tofu. It is really a MUST eat if you are done with Niah, and finding food on the way back.

Type this address on google to find it: “Sing Chiong Restaurant, Kampung Keluru Jaya, 98150 Bekenu, Sarawak, Malaysia”

It was an amazing lunch!

Shall end the blog here now guys! Hope you enjoyed reading it. More next week!

Special shoutout to Teng: for my early birthday present! Love it! (Not the munchkin)