It’s almost the end of a tough year, 2017.
I feel like I’ve been through it all, Heartbreaks, New love, Breaking of Hearts, Being broken.
I’m way too good at Goodbyes.
Yes. It seems so narrow minded of me that I revolve my life with how I feel. But different people have different trigger points. Some get triggered by injustice in the world, and put their efforts around doing something about it. Some wants to find purpose in life, in their career and then doing something about it. Well, for me. When I’m in love, I do something about it. And it has been killing me since day 1 about it.
But today, 27th Dec 2017. 4 days before 2018. I’ve decided to love no more. To let go. I’m not looking back, anymore. I have to promise myself that this is the end of the road for this feeling and this self pity. I have to be stronger and be my own person. Never again should I be doing things for that person and thinking that I’m totally okay as long as the person is happy. I am not happy. But I aspire to be truly happy.
Readers must be thinking like, can you take this offline and write this in your own personal diary? Why do I have to pen this down for the world to see? Well because I want the world to be my witness and my strength to get over this. I don’t do well suffering alone. I render strength from loved ones, my friends. And all who loves me no matter what. I apologize to all who shows care and want me to rant to them about my problems. And be my personal cheerleader and throw hate crimes at the problem. I apologize because I don’t seem to show that I appreciate you guys enough. And would like to tell you that. You guys are my guardian angel. And I will do anything for you.
Anyway, just to end today’s blog. I’d like to say a formal goodbye, to a past. And let it be a buried past. Goodluck with everything in life.